After going through a long (totally uncalled for) writer’s block, I’m back again with another monologue. I don’t even know what to write anymore. With the sudden changes in the whole world, do we even know what to feel anymore?
I had come back home for my father’s birthday but I simply had no idea my short 5 day break would turn into a long 5 month vacation. As thrilling as it sounded in the beginning, turns out, being in a quarantine is not as peaceful as I imagined it to be. So, I wish to list down all of the things I realized during a global health crisis:
- As much as I like Marx, the obvious class divide that has been highlighted in my country during the pandemic, has opened my eyes and pushed me to be extremely grateful.
- Being in denial is not my cup of tea. Drowning myself in internships and assignments, I have neglected how my mental health has been affected. Constantly reading about the current scenario and especially how uncertain our future is, frightens me. My productivity level has gone down, I feel bored and tired all the time, and I have to consciously make efforts to remain healthily engaged in something which affects me positively. Listening to my favorite music and watching old Bollywood movies (surprisingly) has had a great effect on my mind.
- Cleaning the house is very tiring but oddly satisfying.
- I am so thankful to live in a spread out colony of bungalows where I can step out of my house for a while and go for walks.
- Meditating calms me but makes me extremely sleepy.
- Re-reading Harry Potter is a great way to escape into another (literally) magical world, away from the almost dystopia we live in currently.
- The 1975 is one of the most brutally honest bands of all time and that’s exactly what makes them so beautiful. Listening to them is a great escape from and into the reality (as weird as it sounds).
- The sky has become clearer and the stars appear brighter than usual. The night sky looks so much better these days.
With these realizations in mind, I hope to indulge in productive things which make me happier and more peaceful, even during this period of uncertain time that all of us are going through.